And so he married her, without doubt, without hesitation. It had been five months since Frank had moved to Preacher's Corner. Since then we started seeing each other more or less steadily, from there it was passed to bring it home and then to stop to sleep more and more from her ... a vicious cycle that had ended a marriage. Not married because I loved her. I was attracted to her, I loved her, I imagined even a family with her ... but not loved. I continued, even foolishly, to be in love with Maggie. Yet she had not done more to hear, had refused all my calls, had not responded to my post and I had thought that I wanted to see more. Then what are you waiting for? Wait then what? The only thing that was worth the wait I had lost and I could not pretend to weigh on the shoulders of my parents for much longer. So Frank and I were married there swearing eternal love.
marriage with her was quiet, peaceful. We loved each other very much and we looked like as a couple. At lunch we talked, we were quite active in bed and we agreed on programs to watch on tv ... in short, all right.
We went to live at the home of Francesca, a mega-villa not far from my parents' house like that, especially on holidays, mothers and fathers were often at our house. They had approved the marriage but I think of these things has never been safer. So a mother does not mean to say you can "Do not marry one, it sucks." Would not say never. Tells you when you say yes to whatever you're getting married. However my mother did not notice how little was missing in me would agree with me in considering marriage to Francesca a good thing.
Jun : "This turkey is uneatable."
Francesca: "Really? I'm a mess, sorry. "
Jun :" No, dear. There is no need to despair for so little. "
Francesca:" You're always so polite! "
Jun :" Of course, however, darling, you could choose someone as a wife it was not incapable. In the kitchen, I mean. "
Blake:" Ahm ... Brother, take me in the kitchen? Take the dessert! "
Not that he hated Francesca, but would preferred that I married the girl I was really in love. She also made the mistake of giving little weight to the wedding and had paid dear enough, made me remember. The marriage was not a way to settle down, but a situation whose only priority was to be comfortable with the person who really loved her.
But he thought that I would not have preferred? I did not want to marry Maggie? That even if at that moment she had come to me, I would not have left everything and everyone to go with her? Unfortunately, all this was not possible, she had left me and I had had to content.
Even during his marriage to Francesca felt over and over again to contact Maggie. The first period, I remember, that the storm of phone calls, messages and emails to which she promptly did not reply. Then, I had gone to look for physically. I informed you on the dates of live and wherever they are, reaches there. I know I may seem pathetic and I'm ashamed to tell this, however, as far as I'm still in love, not never disturbed in any way. I tried not to approach her or let her know of my presence there. I sat in the audience and watched in silence. I just know you are breathing the same air as her, to look at, to see her still in love with the music, the my hand, he had never disappointed. Then, at the end of the show, I silently vanish.
Francesca, however, it was not stupid in one way or another I had to justify the fact that often disappear. I did not want to invent excuses, it made no sense. And I did not even tell you the truth, not to not make him jealous, simply because that was my secret and I wanted to share it with anyone. So when he asked me where I went I would just not respond and those were the only times in which we fought. Or rather, where I attacked and she did not utter a word.
Così quando dopo una delle nostre litigate lei prese a non rivolgermi la parola e ad evitarmi la cosa mi sembrò del tutto normale. La mattina usciva prima che io finissi di fare colazione con la scusa del centro benessere e, quando la sera ritornavo, o usciva con le amiche o andava a letto dichiarandosi stanca. Non ci badai più di tanto ripromettendomi di chiarire con lei in seguito e continuando la mia solita routine.
Poi finalmente scoprii perchè mi evitava. Era domenica mattina e, anzichè dedicarmi al footing come mia abitudine, ero rimasto a casa. C'era un concerto di Maggie in città quel pomeriggio and for that reason I preferred to conserve energy. Frank went down in my pajamas and just found me on the veranda, went back upstairs without even saying goodbye. I was tired of that situation, what would you take? And if it had been really serious? So I followed her and found her in the bedroom.
Blake: "You can tell me what's wrong?" I asked quietly.
Francesca: "Nothing, why?"
Blake: "You're avoiding for days. Maybe an exaggeration but the last time I do not believe it is appropriate to clarify? You know that when I get nervous I speak without thinking. "
Francesca:" No, not for that. "I said looking worried.
Blake: "And ... What then? "
Francesca:" I do not know if I'm ready to tell you. Can I ask you to wait a little longer? "
Blake:" No, you can not. You're making me worry, Brother. Tell me what's going on. "
Francesca:" All right. I'm pregnant. "
Silence. Gravestone. Property. Heavy.
Blake: "It '... is a wonderful thing. Really. "I said trying to mask the lack of conviction.
Francesca: "Look, we get the point. I think I know a little, and if you do not feel like raising a child, I can have an abortion. I'm still the first month. "
Blake:" What ... no, wait. Want an abortion? "
Francesca:" I did not say that I want. I'd love to keep the baby but it is not only mine, is yours for the decision it is both. If you prefer, I can have an abortion. It 'just that we're married, we can safely try it again in the future. Maybe it is too early, no? "
Blake:" No no no. You're right, I do not feel ready but it is not a good reason for an abortion. We do not have some kind of trouble, got married, there is economic stability ... so why not? "
Francesca:" Are you sure? If it considers it a mistake, I repeat, I can understand you. For me there are no problems. I'm not going to have a child amounts to me. "
Blake:" Hey, you're not imposing anything. That's fine. We hold it! "
Francesca:" Just as well then, "he replied with a smile, hugging.
It occurred to me that when Maggie gave me the unforgettable false alarm, we made love immediately after. This time 99% was anything but a false alarm, but at least I did not think to take me to bed Francesca. I had no time, actually. Stroked her face telling her that I was leaving and did not know the time when I would return. There was a concert by Maggie.
Francesca "Blake."
Blake: "Brother, I have to move. What is it? "
Francesca:" You will come back? "
Blake:" Yes. Of course I'll be back. "
I'd be back. Unfortunately I was not sure.
The concert took place at the Teatro Municipal. It was not a real concert, but a show of charity for the new park opened in the city.
That time I had the courage, I went backstage and saw her. It was from behind, so close. Almost sentivo quel maledetto "Rock 'n Rose" che non lasciava mai. Nonostante il cuore mi battesse a mille, pensai di poter resistere, pensai che dopo lo spettacolo me ne sarei andato. Poi iniziò a cantare.
I was only 19, you were 29. It’s just 10 years, but it's such a long time. In a heartbeat, I would do it all again.
Late night sex, smokin’ cigarettes. I try real hard but I can’t forget. Now in a heartbeat, I would do it all again.
Now I see that you and me were never meant, never meant to be. Now, now I’m lost somewhere.
Lost between Elvis and suicide; ever since the day we died, well, I’ve got nothing left to lose.
The
waited (im) patiently. Once finished the show, however, came from the side where I was but I reached the dressing room through a side door. I thought of waiting in the parking lot but I learned that from there in half an hour there would be a reception on the ground floor. What did I do? I attended the reception.
Maggie arrived after a long time in a long midnight blue evening gown. It was wonderful.
I went over and she finally saw me. He knew that I was there for her. Broke away from the crowd and joined me, then gestured with his head and belong to us. Once in a deserted corridor, finally began to speak.
Maggie: "What the fuck are you doing here?"
Blake: "I had to talk."
Maggie: "Well, come on. I stopped wasting my time with you for quite a while. "
Blake:" I miss you Maggie ... "Almost begged.
Maggie: "I seemed to have been clear. You make me sick, I feel nothing for you and I truly wish your death. What makes you think he wants to talk? "
Blake:" That song. He spoke to us. "
Maggie:" Do not get movies, I did not write the songs. And then, sorry if I might ask, but your wife knows you're here? "
Blake:" Like .. As ... "
Maggie:" How do I know that eventually you marry the scullery maid?! None of your business. Answer my question. "
Blake:" And 'pregnant. He told me just now and I realized that there I do it. Until it came to be alone with her could also andarmi well, but still not me I was done for a reason. But I can not do to raise a child that is not ours. Give me another chance. I swear, you'll be fine, this time not let you down! "
Maggie:" Your wife told you to be pregnant and you're here? "
Blake:" Yes, only for you! "
Maggie:" You make me even more shit, goodbye. "her back to me and said, quickly moving away from me.
I returned to my car. I had tried and was successful there, it was time to really do with a reason. Maggie was not coming back and now I was in the midst of a life with another woman. Frank was right: the responsibility of that child had both and could not afford to leave them alone. I would not miss anything.
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